Arnold Schwarzenegger Just Recalled the Exact Moment He Admitted to Ex-Wife Maria Shriver of His Affair

Unfortunately for their significant others, cheating scandals in Hollywood have become all too common. From Jude Law’s infidelity with his kid’s nanny in 2005 to, most recently, Natalie Portman‘s husband Benjamin Millepied having a short-lived affair, Hollywood men being unfaithful is, sadly, all around.

And, when speaking of celebrity cheating scandals, there’s one drama that always comes to mind: Arnold Schwarzenegger having a baby with his housekeeper when he was still married to ex-wife Maria Shriver. And though it’s been years since the affair made headlines, Schwarzenegger’s new Netflix docuseries Arnold has the actor-turned-politician remembering all about his “major failure.”

In the show, The Terminator star remembered the exact moment he came clean about his affair with their housekeeper Mildred Baena. “Maria and I went to counseling once a week, and in one of the sessions the counselor said, ‘I think today Maria wants to be very specific about something. She wants to know if you are the father of Joseph,’” Schwarzenegger remembered, per People. “I thought my heart stopped, and then I told the truth.”

“‘Yes, Maria, Joseph is my son,’” he told Shriver. “She was crushed because of that.”

Schwarzenegger then looked back on what he planned to do after the birth of his son Joseph, now 25. “In the beginning, I really didn’t know,” he said. “I just started feeling the older he got the more it became clear to me and then it was really just a matter of how do you keep this quiet? How do you keep this a secret?”

Looking back now, Schwarzenegger knows the damage his affair had on his family. “I think that I have caused enough pain for my family because of my f— up,” he said. “Everyone had to suffer. Maria had to suffer. The kids had to suffer. Joseph. His mother. Everyone.”

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